My prayer has always been to be on the look out to improving my prayer routine. Then on 11/12/2016, a passage opened. I made a new friend/guider. This happened after I stumbled on a then recent blog post of hers where she promised she’d genuinely assist anyone in prayers, if only the person would write to her and request for it. We’ve exchanged mails since then. This was my first email to her, and these are my prayer requests for 2017.
I’m Oluchi. I’m a Nigerian. You won’t believe I only just came across your blog some minutes ago, and I’m willing to take a chance to do this because I really am in need of prayers as I struggle to find the time to pray. I’m covered in shame right now to admit I barely have a personal time with God, and if I have to be honest it’s really not a problem of time. I’m typing this now, I could easily just pray, but I feel too lazy to. Pls how do I get better? one
A lot has happened to me this year, and in all, I give utmost thanks to God. But I have this need, to be productive in my doings. As minor as it may appear, it’s something I wouldn’t want to take with a kid’s glove. Now, I need to feel like I’m adding value to myself mostly. I haven’t felt that way, I don’t want to say in forever. I want to feel that I’m being useful, that my time is being spent wisely and that i’m having to live consciously. That I can manage to influence a section of the society, even though minutely. How can I get there? two
I constantly feel like I lack focus and discipline, and I want that to change. I don’t want to have to get into the new year feeling inadequate and ill prepared for good surprises, and that’s likely to happen if I stay the way I am today. I don’t want to engage in a project and quit midway, like i’ve been known to do which is sad. This I need prayers for. three
This question I keep having to ask myself, “am I doing enough?” The answer is usually a negative. I’m not 20yrs anymore and I feel I should put more effort into this my personal life business. Into growing -mentally, spiritually, socially, academically, economically and even physically. These are all achievable, with bits of sacrifices and dedication I know, and I’m willing to give into them. So do I really need motivation for this? I’m aware motivation is not a gift of the holy spirit. How do I then build it into my daily regime? four
Most importantly, i want to hear God. I want to actively feel his presence in my life. I worry a lot about so many things and I just want, sometimes, to feel a hand on my shoulder or a calming word in my heart. Most times I don’t want to move ahead because even though I’ve prayed, i dont know if it’s the path God would want me to take. I don’t know because I haven’t heard Him say, and I don’t have any assurance my decision is His decision. There’s no way to know whether he placed the thought in my heart or it was as a result of logical deduction. Please, help me. five
As common as those points may be, it saddens me to think I lack them and I may stay with a hollow heart with their absence in my life. I know they won’t manifest at once, but I only want to feel the growth daily and constantly, the only way I can feel any sense of accomplishment with my life. I know those are selfish prayer points maybe, but how would I love another person if I’m never able to love myself first.
This mail to you is just my way of holding Phil 4: 6 & 7 to the guts.